我的硕士记

这是一个最好的年代，似乎也是一个最坏的年代。

生活在北京，转眼间我已经开启了30+的模式，从小时候父母的灌输和教育中，我从考中学到大学，再到进入社会，过渡和经历着我的青春岁月。记得小时候，父母曾经教育我说：你要好好学习，以后好好考上大学，大学毕业有一个好工作，生活就会好了。我从上学开始一直很努力，经历过文革时期的50后父母，一直遗憾于自己的青春在一场疯狂的运动中荒废掉了，人生不可以从来，时间过了也不可以回流。所以我一直也很努力的学习、画画。

我出生于一个寒冷的冬天，90年代开始上的小学，2000年开始上初中、高中。可以说，我的青少年时代是一个典型的"中国式教育 "，其实也就是我们常说的"应试教育 "，数不清的考试，复习练习册、培训班、还有人人都要拼个你死我活的中考、高考，似乎这个独木桥，只有每一个人通过了，考上一个好的大学，未来才能有一个好工作和生活。似乎也是父母在我少年求学时，一直教导我的那样。

网络上有很多段子在说80后，说什么好的政策80后都没有赶上，大学免费没有赶上、扩招我们赶上了。毕业分配好工作，没有赶上，扩招带来的大学文凭不再是含金量高的证明也赶上了。更有网络段子说：如果考上清华还买不起学区房，那当初考清华为什么？无数的反问和反思让我审慎思考自己和自己所处的时代。人们都说时代早就英雄，作为85后的我，上学的时候很多年纪大的老师，成长在文革和共产主义疯狂时代的老师，说我们85后这代人是一代不如一代，是被"腐蚀"了一代人。事实是这样吗？我觉得当然不是。

2004是我应届第一年参加高考，我喜欢美术，那个时候考的是鲁迅美术学院。直到2007年，我才考上鲁迅美术学院油画系，实现了自己的梦想，这个梦想是我自己热爱的专业。我热爱画画，热爱画画那份真诚，用画笔描绘我的思想，表达出来。2011年本科毕业的我考研究生失利，我本来也没有抱什么希望，只是当时觉得大的社会就业环境不好，大学毕业也似乎迷茫，便也参加了一次研究生招生考试，结果我没有考上。

中国的考试和教育 ，今天还能改变我们的命运吗？

从我的小学开始，一直到大学毕业。我参加了无数的考试和补习，所有应试教育 和填鸭灌输式教育 ，我都经历过。我的这个系列作品《硕士》系列，其实是我对自己的人生经历、学习经历的一种反思。我是一个85后，从小开始是看着哆啦A梦长的，不是在革命的血腥风雨和政治运动中成长，所以我一直觉得自己应该在这个年龄做一个对自己的反思，这个反思也许是整个85后，或者80后有过"中国式教育 "经历的人所共鸣的。我不会宏大叙事，不会那么高瞻远瞩的站在民族大义的角度去描绘的我作品，但是我可以从自己的人生经历，也许是整个80后这一代人的经历去思考和反思我们的状态和生活轨迹。

一个没有反思的民族是没有未来的。同样，一个不懂反省的人，也是没有未来的。我的作品是我的人生经历和故事，但是它其实也是我们这一代80后所有在中国接受应试教育成长起来一代的反思和审视。考试还能改变命运吗？一个好的大学一定可以改变命运吗？一个什么样的教育制度才是符合人性规律的？寒门还能出贵子吗？这两天看网络新闻，大家都在讨论社会阶层的固化，原来在我的少年时代，高考被说成是改变命运的阶梯，但是今天大家似乎也越来越不这样认为。

这是一个"拼爹"的时代，这里的拼爹没有任何贬义，只是觉得一切都跟我少年时候父母说的那样寒窗苦读，就能改变命运不一样了，北京的高房价让80后很多变成了房奴，80后独生子女们面对家庭的老人和孩子，很多时候力不从心的。这一切都是现实，北京这座城市，就像雾霾一样，让这座城市充满了"梦幻"色彩。

面对越来越多的80后、90后大学毕业进入社会后的窘境，社会的年轻人面对高房价、应试教育 、缺乏独立思考的能力等。

我没有去言辞激烈的去批判这个社会，现实就是现实，它不以人的意志而改变，但是我觉得自己的作品，可以陈述事实。我可以有反思的能力，我可以有思考和认知事实的能力。

My master dream

I was born in the winter ，started primary school in the 1990s, starting middle school and high school in 2000s .my youth was a typical "China education", actually also is we often say "exam-oriented education", and countless exams, review the workbook, training classes and so on . And everyone have to face lots of exams in their childhood, it seems that the only each person passed, admitted to a good university, can have a good work and life in the future.It seemed that my parents had taught me the way I was when I was a teenager. 

There are a lot of jokes on the Internet saying that after the 1980s, there was no good policy for the post-80s generation.Graduation is a good place to work, not to catch up, you cant afford the price of house when you graduate from Tsinghua university . In that way so many people crowded to buy school district housing in Beijing , why? Countless questions and reflections made me think carefully about myself and my time. When I was students in high school , growth

in the era of cultural revolution and the communist crazy teacher, said we are the "corrosion by capitalism" for a generation.Is that the case? I don't think so.

In 2004, enduring 4 times fine arts college examination , I got LAFA being a freshman . I like Art. It wasn't until 2007 that I got into the painting department of Lu Xun academy of fine arts ,made my Art dream come ture. I graduated from LAFA in 2011, got bachelor’s degree .I want to get a master ‘s degree and graduate ,but I failed . 

Will exam and education change our fate today?

From my elementary school to graduated from college. I've been involved in countless exams and remediation sessions, all of which I've been through with the education and the duck infusion.My collection of "master" series is a reflection of my experience of my life and my learning experience.

this may be the reflection after 1985s, or 80 followed by A "China education" experience of resonance.I won't be grand narrative, will not stand in the Angle of the Chinese nation's sense of honor so vision to describe my work, but I can from one's own life experience, is perhaps the generation after 80 and experience to think and reflect on our state of life. 

A nation without reflection has no future. Similarly, a person who does not understand introspection has no future. My artwork is my life experiences and stories, but it is also our generation all accept the exam-oriented education to grow up in China after 80 generation of reflection and review. Can an exam change your fate? Can a good university change its fate like my parents said ?

This is a "daddy-is-the-key" society .that is a truth. Faced with more and more after 80s, 80s after graduated from the university after entering society, society of young people in the face of high housing prices, exam-oriented education, the lack of independent thinking ability. 

I didn't go to the rhetoric to criticize the society, the reality is that reality, it is not to change the will of man, but I hope my artwork could have values and meaning .